Lost

I relate most of life to song lyrics. In fact, if I were totally honest, I would have chosen to be a writer if I had an ounce of that talent for it.  I truly envy people like Chris Tomlin, Matt Redman, Kristian Stanfill and Joel Houston.  I struggle to memorize scripture, but I can sing you every word of the latest Chris Tomlin CD.  As I write this the latest Christy Nockles song is currently set on repeat.  

Should I ever be abandoned Should I ever be acclaimed Should I ever be surrounded by the fire and the flame There's a name I will remember There's a name I will proclaim Let it be, let it be my Jesus!

It is on repeat not because I love the song, although I do very much love the song, it is on repeat because that is where I feel like I am in my life right now.  Abandoned….. Surrounded by fire and flame… Stuck in a place of pain and uncertainty.  I’m in a place of not knowing what is next so I have these lyrics to remind me that there is a name I can remember, there is a name I can proclaim…. That name is the most powerful name on earth.  It’s the name of Jesus!  And even in these moments of hurt and confusion and feeling utterly lost…. HE. IS. HERE. 

He has not left me.  He has not forsaken me.  He is not done writing my story.  Another set of lyrics that I love come from Genny Owen, “path is broken and the signs are unclear, and I don’t know the reason why you have brought me here.  But just because you love me the way you do, I’m gonna walk through the valley, if you want me to.”  I have heard that God will allow those he plans on using the most to go through the most.  I am not completely sure of his plan for me, but sometimes I feel a little overwhelmed with how much he trust me with.  At this moment I might even admit that sometimes I feel like giving up and giving in.  But God, in is goodness and his love for me brings another set of words to my mind and heart.  This time, they are his words. 

[1 Peter 1:6-8} You rejoice in this, though now for a short time you have had to struggle in various trials so that the genuineness of your faith—more valuable than gold, which perishes though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory, and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ. You love Him, though you have not seen Him. And though not seeing Him now, you believe in Him and rejoice with inexpressible and glorious joy, because you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls.

Because of those words, I can fall asleep tonight declaring….  Should I ever be abandoned… Should I ever be acclaimed… Should I ever be surrounded by the fire and the flame… There’s a name I can remember… There’s a name I can proclaim…..

Let it be JESUS!